August 30, 2011


Time for school to start again and you know what that means... Mornings filled with madness and vanilla coffee, sleepy children and misplaced homework. My boys shouting "Mom I can't find my shoe!" and "Did you sign my permission slip?... It's due today!"

I am so excited for the madness to begin. Honestly it makes me feel like a mom; if that makes sense. Last night while laying in bed with the hubby reflecting on our day my heart began to mourn a little. My babies are babies no more. Not even just a little. I have 3 big boys and it's hard to accept.

It's hard to accept there will be no more baby bottles or high chairs. No more soothies or Johnson & Johnson lavender baby shampoo. No one to rock in my arms and drool all over my shirt. No baby wipes or diapers to carry around. It brings tears to my eyes to think that season of my life is over. A season I thought would bloom just once more.

But choices were made and decisions had to be accepted. When 2 people have totally different views on what the next chapter of family life should be... well someone has to put their wants aside.

So now I have 3 big boys who are growing up too fast for my poor heart to handle.