April 1, 2010
Not A Peep
Lately I have been censoring what I write about with regards to what is going on in my life. Not because I don't want to share what has been happening but because of who might be reading my posts. Now even though my blog is on a public forum and anyone can read or follow it I used to feel like I had anonymity. A special group of faceless friends who read my words and found humor in my wacky life.
Now with all that has happened I am scared to be honest and write my true feelings down as I so easily did in the past because I have personal relationships with some of the readers. I have become frightened of judgment and hurting or disappointing these people who I love dearly. It weighs very heavy on me when I think I have hurt or disappointed people I love but writing has always been the way I expressed myself and I feel that I can no longer be true to myself or be honest in my blogs.
Perhaps I am being big headed or perhaps this is the only way they can learn first hand what is going on.Perhaps they just don't even give a crap anymore what I write and or if I write!!! Who knows all I know is that in times like these nothing is ever easy.