Yesterday my husband sent me to a new level of pissed off that I have never been before. It was 9 a.m. and we were all downstairs trying to decide what to have for breakfast. The kids of course wanted a big bowl of sugar and milk we moms like to call cereal. My sweet hubby had stated earlier that he might be in the mood for eggs but when we got downstairs his mood had changed and he decided he was going to have a nice low-fat breakfast shake. My darling husband then turned his attentions toward me and asked "What are you gonna have for breakfast." to which I innocently replied " Well I guess I'll just have some cereal." Then it happened my husband caught a very bad case of diarrhea of the mouth!
He then said to me "We need to start eating better, we are starting to look bad again!" I know, I know he said we but in this house "WE" means me! It was then I prayed please let actual daggers fly out of my eyes and strike this man dead! Then he proceeded with "We (there is that lovely word again) need to start planning out our meals for the week and only eating what is on that list." Now let me say this I am a little over weight but I have also lost weight. I lost 20lbs and have successfully kept it off. I went from a VERY tight size 18 to a VERY loose size 12. I can't believe I just admitted that but it is true.
Also in my own defense I would like to add that in October I will be running in a 5k race. My hubby on the other hand never works out. Well I shouldn't say never I should say rarely. Yes it is true that I haven't used my treadmill in 2 weeks but my size 12 pants still fit! Now before you start bashing my hubby I do think , no I know it is my fault he is like this. You see I completely spoil him. We are like this because I have allowed the relationship to be like this. I was very angry at what he said but I was even more angry at myself for saying nothing. Why? Because I don't like confrontation. I don't want to hurt his feelings or argue with him.
I like most am very insecure about my body. I don't look like I used to, I have had 3 kids gosh darn it! I am not one of those lucky women who have had children and look like she's had none, not only that but I am SURROUNDED by these types of women! I used to stand up for myself (sort of) but then fear settled in and my thoughts quickly turned into oh gosh what if I stick up for myself and this person then shoots me in the malls parking lot! Well I think fear and self loathing have overstayed their welcome. Also my hubby did apologize and I still love him very much, even if he has packed on the pounds these last 10 years.